Me, My Pipe, & My WEED

Maryjane got me feeling out of touch. Making me not want to see you as much.

My feelings are now enhanced. Living a fantasy world cause with you I have no chance.

All I need, All I really need, is my pipe and my weed.

My mind drifts away and I'm convinced that it's here where I wanna stay.

It's here where I belong. Without you, I feel strong.

I'm high and you don't exist. I'm high and nothing is better than this.

I miss you no more. I have no tears to pour.

I take a look at myself in the mirror, my eyes are so red and low, and honestly... I could give a fuck if it shows.

In this world I'm never second plate, always number one. The shitty reality is done. At least for now, it's gone.

So if you wanna go to her, then go to her motherphucker. Cause if I wanna blow it down, then I'll blow it down motherphucker.

It's just me, my pipe, and my weed. That's all I need, that's all I really need.

good girl gone bad theory

The good girl is at it again.
Trying to satisfy others without trying to satisfy what's within.
She doesn't understand why he treats her the way he does.
Naive little girl is with him just because.
Because he has made promises that she still holds on to,
hoping that maybe one day he will wake up and everything he promised will come true.
She finally learns that nobody changes for anyone else.
The only one who you can change is yourself.
Keep trying to change him
and all you'll win...
is a new you,
with resentment in your heart and a bad attitude too.
She knows what she knows
but keeps falling for the assholes.
Each break up is becoming easier and easier.
'Fuck the world' is the motto that motivates her.
Good girl has now gone bad, but she's not gone forever.
She'll do dirt and have the best game ever.
She'll roll with the niggas and gain some knowledge,
shit she would've never learned while being in college.
Mistakes here and there,
but she will carry these lessons with her everywhere.
She'll get tired of that lifestyle once a real man appears,
a man who has more to offer then just chicken, sex, & beers.
She'll be the good girl she was always meant to be,
with the man who appreciates her & loves her just as much as she.

They keep asking me how I can remain so calm when people do me wrong.

They don't understand why revenge is not my plan.
I listen to my heart & it sings:

from you to me

I would like to know, If it’s possible… To get to know you better, Let me take you out & get passed me occasionally slipping you a love letter. Right now you’re like an unsolved puzzle with a billion pieces. I’d like to admit, I want to be the one to put them all in the right places. I’m not gonna say how perfect you are from the way you talk, walk, smell. I don’t need to waste my time on that, everyone can tell. Now you’re giving me that whatever look, That “You got this from some ‘how to mac it’ book.” And you feeling like you want to walk away… Let me reassure you, I’m not like them other cats, I would never stray. You’d be my queen, and as cliché as that may seem, I’m offering you reality and not a dream. Why you in shock? Cause I’m telling you how I feel inside? You could do the same, there’s nothing to hide. Oh, okay, so you got a man? Now I understand… But not really, Let me speak a bit more clearly. I just want you to be my lady. You deserve the best, not that shit you been dealing with lately. I can tell in your eyes all the unhappiness he brings. Notice how I notice the little things. Stop trying to satisfy him, Lying to yourself just so you could stay by him. Telling all your friends how he’s the one, When you know deep in your heart, he should be gone. Baby girl why you rolling them eyes? As if I’m standing here spitting lies. Let me make this easier for you, You don’t have to accept my date, if you really don’t want to. But tonight when you sleep, Next to that guy who’s not too sweet, Think of me and please remember, It may hurt today, tomorrow, and the day after, But the day your heart decides to walk out that door, You will hurt no more.

I'm Ready

In my mind, I'm dead. I can't sleep with all these thoughts in my head. I keep trying, but I can't seem to find a solution. Everyone keeps telling me to keep pushing. They don't see what I see, feel what I feel. It takes me a while to believe that all of this is real. If I'm the shoulder you lean on, then what would happen if I was gone? I need my own hero. Someone who can save me and not let me go.

Honeyx33

I know it's not V a l e n t i n e 's, but will you forever be mine? You're so rare. I know you'll always be there. For me, you see... you got me thinking and now all that dreaming, is finally real. I want to shout out the way you make me feel. They don't believe me when I say you're perfect. But I knew you were from the first day we met. Love at first sight? Yes. Some things you just can't fight. There is only one for me. You're the one who was made for me, that's easy to see. When you hold me I feel light. Let's go to my place tonight.

*incomplete

I don't usually do dates
but I think it's time I start looking for candidates.
I just can't take,
anymore of this heartache.
I can't keep giving,
without receiving.
You're so comfortable
and I just keep giving my all.
There's no more I can do,
but to just get over you.
And to tell you the truth,
that line I drew,
has been crossed
and I've realized that I'm not lost
...anymore
I know I deserve a whole lot more.
After everything, I don't put you to blame.
It's my fault for not knowing how to play this game.

It hurts to see clearly.
Because the reality is that you're not in love with me.

I've learned to avoid my feelings.
& now I don't know how it is to feel like a real human being.

LOVABLEx3

I've loved & been loved back, at some point. He loved me & I loved him, u n e q u a l l y. I never could love him as much as he loved me. But I did love him, I swear I did. Okay so maybe the fact is, the person I loved wasn't the same person who loved me - vice versa. The ones that have loved me, may still love me, but I love none of them. Never did even though I may have said it. Call me the "I love you" LIAR. The one I loved I never said or showed my love to. He never bothered to ask. So now that I really think about it... I most likely never loved before; How sad.

Sometimes the world can seem so colorless.

& what seems to be innocent, really isn't.